T.V. Quote of the Day

"They say the inability to accept loss is a form of insanity... it's probably true but sometimes is the only way to stay alive..."

-Grey's Anatomy.

T.V. Quote of the Day

"People tell you who they are but we ignore it... because we want them to be who we want them to be..."

-Mad Men

Movie Quote of the Day

"A painting its more than the sum of its parts..."

-Flipped

Movie Quote of the Day

"One's character is set in an early age... it's about honestly son"

-Flipped

Movie Quote of the Day

"Funny; I guess destiny is not the path given to us, but the path we choose for our selves..."

-Megamind.

Movie Quote of the Day

-"...because I love you and you are my best friend... and frankly I'm so tired of missing you..."

-Going to the distance.

T.V. Quote of the Day

"Its easier to be alone because what if you learn that you need love and then you don't have it? what if you like it and lean on it? what if you shape your life around it and then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain?

Loosing love is like organ damage. Is like dying. The only difference is: death ends, this... it could go on forever..."

-Grey's anatomy.

Song (Lyrics) of the Day

Last Sunday I was working out and came across the music video for the song "King of Anything" by Sara Bareilles... of course right after I bought it and the song made it all the way to my Top Hits list... Just for you...

"King Of Anything"

Oh (oh oh oh)

Oh (oh oh oh)

Oh (oh oh oh)

Oh (oh oh oh)

Keep drinkin' coffee

Stare me down across the table

While I look outside

So many things I'd say if only I were able

But I just keep quiet

And count the cars that pass by

You've got opinions, man

We're all entitled to 'em

But I never asked

So let me thank you for time

And try to not waste any more of mine

Get out of here fast

I hate to break it to you babe

But I'm not drowning

There's no one here to save

Who cares if you disagree

You are not me

Who made you king of anything

So you dare tell me who to be

Who died

And made you king of anything

Oh (oh oh oh)

Oh (oh oh oh)

Oh (oh oh oh)

Oh (oh oh oh)

You sound so innocent

All full of good intent

You swear you know best

But you expect me to

Jump up on board with you

Ride off into your dellusional sunset

I'm not the one who's lost

With no direction oh

But you won't ever see

You're so busy makin' maps

With my name on them in all caps

You got the talkin' down just not the listening

And who cares if you disagree

You are not me

Who made you king of anything

So you dare tell me who to be

Who died

And made you king of anything

All my life

I've tried

To make everybody happy while I

Just hurt

And hide

Waitin' for someone to tell me it's my turn

To decide

Oh (oh oh oh)

Oh (oh oh oh)

Oh (oh oh oh)

Oh (oh oh oh)

Who cares if you disagree

You are not me

Who made you king of anything

So you dare tell me who to be

Who died

And made you king of anything

Who cares if you disagree

You are not me

Who made you king of anything

So you dare tell me who to be

Who died

And made you king of anything

Let me hold your crown, babe

Oh oh

Ah

T.V. Quote of the Day

-Just when you think your relationship is perfect then you find your Aquiles heel... the thing that is going to destroy it...

-Chuck.

T.V. Quote of the Day

-... you"ll never get to fix the past, all you can do is get as far away from it as possible...

-Royal Pains

T.V. Quote of the Day

- The idea that your career it's the only thing that would ever matter t you is frankly a young persons notion...

-Grey's Anatomy

Living Habit

"...now you know more about the psychology of Chela's character... but today I realized that working at home is still the most difficult and least appreciated..." (This is what my sister twitter today...)

For all of you that don't know my sister is a soap opera actress in Mexico; she is actually kinda popular back home... anyway, in the soap opera where she is currently working, she portrays a humble good woman that has dedicated and sacrificed her entire life for her family... she is basically a frigging saint that is unappreciated by the man that she has devoted her entire life to. Chela, basically, took/has taken care of him and his children after his wife, who was Chela's sister, passed away; and somewhere, in those years, she falls in love with him... OMG! she fell in love with her -technically- brother in law!... Goooood Mexican soap opera drama going on here!!!! Ok ok, the point I'm trying to make is that my sister is realizing that the hardest, most difficult thing for her has been taking care of the house... (although I really don't know what is she talking about... she has one nanny, one cook and one house keeper all of them full time, and one more house keeper part time... she has an army marching right behind her... and her husband... and her son... in a two bedroom condo (De luxe!!)... I guess Chela has thought her this. Chela cooks, does laundry, watches over the kids, cleans, etc, etc, etc. And you know what... my sister is totally right! nobody really feels a sense of respect for a woman that only takes care of the house and the family... but why?... why? why?

I love modern society (at least on this side of the globe). I'm a single woman (ok ok divorcee... happy?) in my thirties with no kids ( and no plans on having them any time soon... or ever?), that does not get single out because of it... Today I'm considered a woman within the normal parameters (seriously cool!!!). Also I get to work doing what I like, living where I want (that happens to be far and away from the nest...normal). I get to enjoy the pleasures of this life without any sense of guilt (normal and necessary) without having to be a guy (although still not quite the same, but getting there)... So why is it that I miss doing the things I was never rewarded for doing so (or respected for that matter)... like cooking for someone, caring for someone, even cleaning for someone else... Something must be really wrong upstairs!!! Damned Mexican Soap Opera Drama upbringing!!! Growing up I should have been in front of the mirror right next to my sister instead of hanging out in the kitchen with my mom helping her cook!!! Man... habits... difficult to shake them off...

Movie Quote of the Day

-You can't grow old as a woman without having at least one lousy man in your life...

-Mr. Brooks

T.V. Quote of the Day

-... look I'm sorry I said that you didn't matter, the truth is I didn't know how to defined you. You weren't a boyfriend, you weren't NOT a boyfriend... you were something in between; but you were definitely something...

-Mr. Sunshine.

T.V. Quote of the Day

-... at the end of the day; the fact that we have the courage to still be standing, is reason enough to celebrate...

-Grey's Anatomy

Clockwork of the Mind

It´s funny how time works... last December I received the phone call I had wish for months... Mr. P called around 1:30 am... Drunk of course. The funny part (there is always a funny part) was that I was also a little (lot!) drunk, hanging out with friends. I really can´t tell you much about the phone call because right after; I proceeded to get even more drunk and silly with my friends. The thing I can tell you about it is that it lasted just about two minutes (I checked the timer the following morning) and txt messages followed that phone call, txt messages that said things I would have loved to hear months before... But that night, the phone call and the messages were plain annoying!!... No, let me rephrase that, they actually pissed me off... Big time!!! Why did he have to take so long? Why did he have to call drunk in the middle of the night? Why did he have to be such a... coward?

It took me about twenty days to be able to respond, we actually got to talk (over the phone) on Christmas day and something really strange happened: I found my self with very little to say (I guess that's what blogs are for). He on the other hand talked about how wonderful he's been doing and how great he is at work... He even dared to mention the "dates" he's been on... man, sometimes I wonder how I was able to date this guy for so long. He obviously does not care much about anyone else but himself. Given, he was generous with me when we were together, but giving money and/or buying things for another person does not necessarily means that someone "cares"... that just sounds like "paying" to me...

It's gonna be almost a year since I moved out and I find myself with mixed feelings. Sometimes I think I can and could be nice to him, but every time I do and or say something nice is followed by days -even weeks- of me just wanting to tell him the good old "fuck you"

Today I had a realization: All the things that he complained about me are -mostly- what define women... Sure I'm not passionate about politics, but I can have a conversation with you about what's going on in the world, and if I don't know I'm happy to learn. Sure I'm not passionate about economics, but If you tell me a book is great (like Freakonomics) I will get lost in it... The only thing I want is someone to play ball with me... Seriously, I don't expect my partner to talk about make up (that would be just wrong), or to talk with me about, feelings, cramps, hormones, food, workouts, diets, friendships, family, etc, etc, all the time!!! That's why I have GIRLFRIENDS (and mom and sis)... with them I get to do the things I don't get to do with my partner, but I would like to have someone that would talk with me about religion, psychology, human behavior, experiences in life, theories (and my family and my feelings sometimes) without forgetting to have lots of playtime and lovetime... basically, somebody willing to throw the ball back to me. Mr. P was just not willing to play ball. He wanted to change every thing that makes me who I am... Not perfect... but you know what? always willing to play.

It was a little over a year ago when it became clear to me that he was not willing to move one foot in order to meet me half way and almost a year since I moved out of "our" (it was always his) place... and you know what else? He can just go and... fuck off!

I hope I can soon stop writing about what I am still going through/thinking and start writing about how great I am :)... (OK let me stop right here; I'm actually doing great. I've been hanging out with my friends who, by the way, introduced me to someone that I've been dating for a few months, who has introduced me to a bunch of other people, and taken me to many dozens of dinners and social events and trips... Nothing serious but it has been soo fun! I've been taking things one day at the time, today is about having fun... and tomorrow too! But no one really wants to read about that... unless there is drama) It has been great to be me!!!... exploring the New York cuisine has been just... AWESOME!

What I can actually tell you today is that if I die tomorrow at least my tummy has been the happiest of them all, eating little (the braces don't allow much) but tasting everything!!!

Movie Quote of the Day

I lie here not knowing how long I've been alone...

So how can I heal... how am I supposed to heal if I can't feel time...?

-Memento

Movie Quote of the Day

...and you enjoy each other for what you can give to each other now... believe me, it won't last forever...

-Happy Accidents

2011 Kick Off

Around 7:00pm we were heading up to Times Square. We were prepared, we were even wearing red underwear, you know, for good luck. It was so unexpected... At an office party, located in the heart of Times Square, we counted the last seconds of the year as we watched the ball drop from the balcony, right across the street... there were fireworks, confetti, people screaming and kissing (and I was one of them... can't break the tradition you know)... Then decided that it was a good idea to crash the party at the Hard Rock Cafe... and we got away with it!!! Once inside I could not believe my eyes... It was Taio Cruz signing Dynamite!!!

Recap:

VIP view to Times Square Ball Drop, free concert at the Hard Rock Cafe (then a DJ until the wee hours of the morning) with open bar and cupcakes... it was priceless... LITERALLY!

Moral of the Fable:

The best times are the unexpected ones!!!