Not as good as I thought!

Today was not as good as I thought it would be. Started very strong, had my breakfast, went for a tan, went to check out a new gym and then right after that things started going downhill... I literally had to smack my face a couple of times in the subway, as soon as I felt tears in my eyes, to snap me out of it... This blogging thing it's kinda crazy to be honest. I don't even know how to tell my family about it. It's like coming out of the closet... I've always wanted to write something, but I definitely never thought that I would be blogging about my days after the break-up... What I can tell you for sure is that it makes me stop crying. Right before grabbing my computer (just minutes ago) I was sobbing while opening and shredding my mail (bank stuff mostly) that He had put together and mailed my way. As soon as I saw that manila envelope with his hand writing, it was all over for the brave face that I was trying so hard to put on. All day long I'm like "please don't cry, please don't cry" and have to start breathing like I am in a Yoga class so people don't stare at me when I'm out and about... who am I trying to kid, they stare as soon as I start the breathing thing anyway... Isn't that exhausting?