Game Over Part# 2

I've come to realize three important facts:
1.- I'm awesome at dating when I'm not interested on dating.
2.- I'm not too bad at dating when I am introduced to someone.
3.- I'm terrible at dating (bit of a moron at times) when I meet someone randomly.
One of the things I used to do when I first started dating was to double book myself. Juggling with two guys was such a revelation. I remember always been cool, calm and collected. If number one canceled (there is always a #1) there was always #2. And if they were both available, no sweat. One for lunch, the other for dinner (yikes!)... or would cancel one last minute. This worked for me wonderfully and the reason it did, I think, was because in the end I didn't really care... and I had OPTIONS!
When I first started dating my ex, Mr. P; I would still go out on other dates. Don't get me wrong. I liked the guy but my situation was particularly different at that time because:
1.- I didn't completely care about dating yet.
2.- I had been happy AND single for the longest time (thanks to friends and family).
3.- I had two jobs and worked out religiously (you know, endorphins!)
4.- We did not live in the same city.
The whole thing was so casual that when it became clear that I really liked the guy (OK, 80% liked the guy), my mind started with the what ifs, like: "what if I get hurt" or "what if there is someone better for me out there"... (a.k.a. sabotage). I basically freaked out... and broke up with him...