Hot Tamales

In the last several months I've been asking for something I rarely do: A Peace of Mind.
Normally when I talk to God I ask the usual stuff: "please take care of my family" or "please give me health" and so on. But lately, man, I could really use some Peace of Mind. About four months ago I got into a fight with my best friend of 12 years... I seriously don't want to go into the details (they are as stupid as you can imagine), but I really really thank God that we have been friends for so long. She just stood there and said: "Karlita, I'm not going to get mad. I know you... you are just going through some shitty times..." Of course I spent the next week apologizing to her. Also, about a month ago, I almost ended up at the police station in Acapulco Mexico, because of a traffic violation. I decided to get into an argument with the police officer, not a good idea... EVER! Again, thank God my mother (who was with me along with my Grand Mother) has a boyfriend who happens to be friends with the Chief Police Officer of this town. As soon as she dropped the name things cool off and he, finally, let me go... and without a ticket. Everybody in the car was so scared! My Mother (again thank God... this is getting old!) had the same reaction as my best friend.
The negative side (ok, it's all negative) of this Hot Head I'm sporting is that I'm doing it to the new people in my life... therefore, just as easy as they come, they are gone. And, really, there is no way I'm going to try to convince them that I'm usually not this loquita. So, all I can do is pick up the pieces, apologize, look up, and stay out of their way hoping that one day I would get a second chance to make things right...